Chapter 2: Maybe tomorrow..."I'm so

Chapter 2: Maybe tomorrow

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"I'm sorry, Izayoi-san"

Those words... whom did they belong to? Whose was the shaky and scared voice? And why did it sound so hurt?

"I had no choice, I am... I am sorry"

Again.

The way it spoke was breaking my heart. It was someone important, someone precious and irreplaceable... and yet, why did I feel such a rage toward it? What was that 'it' talking about?

Numb.

I felt numb. Not able to open my eyes, not able to move a finger or say that everything is okay... or is it?

Why?

Why was it that I had no control over my body? Why was it that I felt so dull? Why couldn't I remember anything? Why did I feel so... dead?

"Forgive me..."

(I won't.)

I forgive you, so please...

(Go away.)

Don't sound like that.

(Don't talk to me anymore,)

Don't cry anymore,

(don't let me be reminded of what you did.)

don't let me feel those tear drops falling on my face.

(You betrayed us)

You are very precious.

(It hurts to know you were... lying.)

It hurts to know you are... crying.


Izayoi's P.O.V.

Tears? Why am I crying? Why do I feel so sad?

"Izayoi-kun?"

What happened? What did I dream about? Why did it hurt to breathe? Why did it hurt to think?!

"Izayoi-kun!"

Snapping out of it, I blinked a few times and noticed a worried face hovering over me. But... who was that woman?

"Thanks god..." she sighed and leaned her face into her palms.

Before I got to say anything, she took a glass of water and let me take me few sips which made me realize just how horrible my throat felt. Wait... deja vu? Didn't this happen before? Oh, never mind... I felt so lethargic and tired that I didn't care.

"Who...'re u?" I asked and immediately regretted it as a wave of pain hit my head. Why did everything hurt? And why did my tongue feel like jelly?

She was quiet for a while as if thinking about how to answer and then whispered plainly "A doctor".

A doctor? Ah... I started to remember. She was the one who asked me about some things... but when was it? Everything... everything was just so hazy!

"How do you feel?" her voice was very gentle and silent which I really appreciated with that harshly throbbing head of mine.

"Fine..." Well, if I skipped the fact that my head was near to exploding, that breathing hurt and my whole body was screaming, then yes. I was fine. Perfectly.

The doctor eyed me with that look at her face clearly saying 'I'm not buying it'. Well, no one would. Even I didn't believe my own words so why would a professional doctor would?

"You should sleep" she mouthed.

Sleep? Duh, no thanks. I didn't want to sleep. That dream made me feel horrible. Even though I didn't even know what it was about that I was so scared... not really scared but more like depressed. God knows why. And god knows who- Wait.

"Where'm I?" goddamnit! What was with this ridiculous pain and weakness I felt with every single stupid move?!

I didn't even let her answer and started with another questions. And hell, why didn't I notice sooner that I knew nothing about this place or her? Or why I couldn't remember anything?! What the hell was happening?!

"What hap'nd? Why'm here? " I felt my heart rapidly beating. "Why can't I r'member an'thing?!"

"Izayoi-kun, calm down. Everything is alright" she assured me but I didn't believe her. Something was pretty screwed up! My head was completely screwed up!

Every cell in my body was screaming at me to get the hell out! I couldn't get rig of the feeling of danger in my guts and the pain I felt as I tried to move was worse and worse. It was getting harder to breathe, my chest started hurting. Grey dots were now invading my vision and happily dancing here and there and everything went blurry. However I still felt panic overtaking my body as cold fingers touched me and I tried to get away. To move. Move!

Before I even realized it, I forcefully was dragged into that empty and dark place again. This time not relieved to be welcomed by the nothingness but terrified by what it might remind me of.


Takane's P.O.V.

Three days. It has been hellish three days since he woke up and when today, finally, he came to, the first thing that happens is that he has a panic attack? Was this some kind of joke? Yes, yes, I knew he would be very confused and scared but really?! Panic attack?! I had to sedate the boy to prevent him from hurting himself...

Sighting, I leaned back at the chair which has metaphorically become a part of my body as I have been sitting on it for the last five days... maybe not straight but it still made my butt feel pretty much numb.

"Takane-san?" an uncertain voice behind me drew my attention. Turning my head, I looked at the sorrowful and worn out figure standing by the closed doors.

"Black rabbit" I whispered, gesturing her to come in.

The girl seemed a hesitant but after a while she slowly walked toward me, eyes locked at the floor.

"Did you need anything?" I asked and smiled a little.

"Shouldn't we... go out?" whispered the girl.

"Don't worry